Huxley, I'm glad you asked that, as it is a great question. The inner turmoil when we as Jehovah's Witnesses start to use our God given thinking abilities without consulting the indoctrination we have had.
It all boils down to this simple thing: Either you believe that the current and past members of the Governing Body of Jehovah's Witnesses are "God's official and only communication channel to all mankind" or you don't.